Where There Is Faith

It's 10:25PM...

My head is pounding...

There's a crack in the pad of my left foot down by my pinky toe...

My right pinky toe feels like it has a blister...

I weighed 3/4 of a pound more this morning than I did yesterday...

Why can't I just pray the fat away...gaining weight certainly didn't seem hard...why is losing it...

It was 100 degrees today...

It's still 83 and the humidity is up in the "miserable" range...

I know I need to get out there and go for a walk...but I DON'T WANNA!

It's 10:30PM...

Socks on...shoes on...shorts on...playlist Genius 04 shuffle...ready...set...go...

It's 10:40PM...

Ugh...none of this music is really inspiring me tonight...keep walking...

It's 10:50PM....

I hate this weather....

It's 11:00PM...

He's My Son, by Mark Shultz, plays...hmmm...that's a touching song...the plaintive cry of a man wondering if God is listening to his heartfelt prayer...I've been there...I understand...

...but I'm still really not in the mood for all this...

It's 11:10PM...

Where there is faith
There is a voice calling, keep walking
You’re not alone in this world
Where there is faith
There is a peace like a child sleeping
Hope everlasting in he who is able to
Bear every burden, to heal every hurt in my heart
It is a wonderful, powerful place
Where there is faith

...OK...I get it...faith...maybe my real problem today is...me...maybe I've spent the past couple days focused more on what I want than trusting in Him...Where There Is Faith...

It's 11:24PM...

Only a little bit more....

I'll never know why
Why you did what you did
You didn't have to die
But you did
You hung on the cross
So that I wouldn't be lost
You took my place
Now You're pleading my case
You didn't have to do it
Oh, but I'm glad you did
You didn't have to do it
But I'm glad you did

You didn't have to suffer
You didn't have to give your life
You could have come down from the cross
But you chose to die
You said "Father forgive them
For they know not what they do"
An when they pierced Your side
You just hung bled and died

You didn't have to come down
From the Father's side
But because of Your love for me
You made the sacrifice
You knew no sin
But became sin for me
An all who believe
Can live eternally

You didn't have to do it
But I'm glad you did
You could have come down from the cross
Then my soul would be lost
But You chose to stay
And Your love made a way

...sigh...truth...You Didn't Have To Do It...but I'm glad you did...

It's 11:30PM...

Attitude adjusted...

Abba, I come to you, a broken offering. My problems are not bigger than You. My wants, my desires, pale in comparison to what You want for me. Help my heart seek Your truth.